i'm hopefully getting prepared to move. *GASP* what am i thinking?! who do i think i am thinking I can live MY life how I want?! pfft.. i'll never make it- ISN'T THAT RIGHT AMANDA?! YOU ARE PART OF THE REASON WHY I'M GETTING OUTTA THIS UNOPPORTUNISTIC STATE. *GASP* I BELONG AT COURAGE KENNY LIKE A MENTALLY HANDICAPPED MINDLESS CLIENT SO I CAN MAKE *YOUR* LIFE EASIER BY NOT HAVING MY MOM CALL YOU AND YOUR MOM WHINING ABOUT HOW MUCH SHE SUPPOSEDLY MISSES ME. I'M TOO STUPID TO HAVE MY OWN GOALS! I DO HAVE A TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY SO THAT MAKES ME MENTALLY HANDICAPPED! RIGHT AMANDA?! NO ONE CAN BE AS SMART AS YOU! WHO IN THE HELL DO I THINK I AM?! this morning when i was listening to the breakfast club this morning- the positive note of the day was about how it's rewarding to take risks because the risk could be an opportunity to make your life the best life you can imagine (something around that meaning.. i have a bad memory.. so i don't remember EXACTLY what it was.. this is ironic because if i don't take the risk of moving to boston- my life will more than likely become an uneventful one where i end up drinking pepsi and smoking cigarettes while talking to my dogs which will drive me to end it).
this business at mall of america is interested in hiring me. i spoke to the guy about the job about 10 minutes ago and i'm more than capable of performing the tasks this job asks except i might get tired if i escort guests from the store to the bus stop all the time but i'm not sure if there's some way i can get around that- the guy i spoke to today about the job is going to check on it. i'm also not sure how much longer i'll be in this state because i remember zen telling me that he'd help me check out the apartment in concord this week because they have a deadline i have til i can PERSONALLY accept the apartment and view it so i can sign papers personally but zen asked the lady for an extension and she hasn't gotten back to us about that yet.
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